There is nothing that can mitigate the pain that comes when I’ve stabilized enough to realize the actions I have taken while symptomatic. I can never undo the hurt my actions have caused others, and some of those relationships can never be repaired. And that’s tragic. Truly. But it is also the direct result of a symptom I could not manage at that time, and not a reflection of who I am as a person. It is exactly the same as any other symptom associated with any other chronic, debilitating disease. It is very unfortunate that my symptoms sometimes result in actions that can outwardly and directly hurt others. Therefore, self-forgiveness has been critical for me in living with Bipolar. All I can do is be sensitive to the hurt I’ve caused, work to repair relationships when given the opportunity, and take responsibility for my actions without harboring the deep shame I would be entitled to if I’d acted purposefully or out of malice. It’s easier said than done. But it’s worth trying.”
I try to learn your little quirks,
But at me you do smirk…
Freeze my screen, boot me off line,
Must you do that all the time!You will never get the better of me,
I’ll turn you off you will see…
When I turn on you better behave,
All my stuff you better save…All my pictures, wavs, and faces,
And please don’t take my favorite places!!!
Don’t tell me I have a major crash,
Or your monitor I will smash.Don’t take away my Buddy List,
Give me my mail or I’m gonna be miffed…
Don’t give me that line about being busy,
Or you will throw me into a tizzy!!!All I want to do is surf the net,
You’re not going to let me I’m willing to bet…
I have mail that I must send,
To all my wonderful Online Friends…
Desiderata: Original Text
This is the original text from the book where Desiderata was first published.
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
by Max Ehrmann ©1927